Once Upon a Dream

Sat, 12 Jul 2008 17:58:35 GMT

So, dreamland was pretty active last night.

My first dream was really different... I don't remember how I got in the situation, but somehow, I was walking alone until I stopped in some vacant lot by the highway. Since I was tired, I decided to hitch a ride.

Bad idea.. One of the cars decides to pull over, and just when I think I'm getting a ride, the creep tries to take advantage of me. D:<

Well... It worked like two times.. ._. But it didn't last long because I beat him on the head with the antenna of my cellphone.

So I can't remember if he ended up leaving or was unconcious, but I ended up crying and exposed and trying to get help. Some biker chicks rescued me and took me somewhere safe.

I honestly can't remember much of what happened, but I didn't want my family to know but I guess... Dave ended up not believing me anyway and I ended up hating him even more.

So, after that, we were in this very beautiful town. Imagine the black and white music video of Amy Lee from Evanescence singing My Immortal.

I was in a white dress similar to what Amy wore but everything was in color.

Leah and I had walked inside this grand church, but I was very sluggish in getting to my seat. Suddenly, Aaron comes in on this horse and Dave says something about him completeing his legacy or something weird like that. O.o

So, anyway, I end up getting on the horse with him and once we're out, Dave nearly shoves me off and says something hurtful and I end up running down an alley in front of this glass door/window and crouch down and cry.

I look up suddenly in the miror and see Bob walking up behind me. He puts his hands on my shoulders and does some kind of hug. We both stand up and hug and I tell him what happened. Including the part about being taken advantage of.

He says something to me and for some reason, we start to sway or dance, and I'm more at ease.

It was really nice.

Sun, 06 Jul 2008 00:57:10 GMT

Good god I haven't posted in forever but that was mostly my fault because I was too lazy. Or other times, I just started writing at the wrong time and had to log off.

Anyway, there are two dreams I want to tell you about. I've given the cuts really long anime episode titles. Hahaha

Our family is going to this big, gothic-like church for mass. It's crowded but lovely and once we finally get a seat, either mom or Aaron tells me that Bob is here somewhere and I should look for him. I look around as much as I could and then I look up at a balcony with stained-glass windows adorning the walls and Bob looking down at me. I wave and so does he so I finally make my way up to where he is only to find he's not there anymore. So I look down and see that he's sitting where I was sitting before and I go down again and his mom is with him.

She tells me that Bob has come here with the intent of marrying me and he plans to wed soon. I freak out a lot, but I try to convince myself that it might not be so bad. I mean, I -do- love him, and it's better than marrying a stranger. But I kept thinking it wouldn't work out because we were so young and it was happening way too fast. But, I was getting married regardless.

When mass had ended, I called my friends to me (they were attending the same church as I), and told them that even though it'd be a fake wedding (I -think- I talked it over with Bob and he agreed that the wedding would be fake, more like pretend), I wanted to have bride's maids stand with me at the altar because I was still nervous about it and didn't want to be up there with just a preist and my fiance... They all happily agreed and giggled at the though because I told them it had to be kept secret. Just then, the young cousins of mine came up to me and wanted to be apart of this too, so I told them they could.

When I had gotten to Grandmother's house, I told everyone that even though it wouldn't be formal attire, that I wanted aa pure, white dress because every bride deserves to wear one on her wedding day, and to many, a pure white one means purity and I thought that fitting for myself. Grandmother told me that she still had the dress from one of her daughter's weddings but she couldn't find it and only had the veil. So she gave it to me and I put it on. It was heavy but I felt pretty and wanted the dress too. So I searched for it until she found it too. When I put it on, I walked around in it, but it was a bit too long for me and I ended up tripping! So, I ended up having to hike up my dress so I could walk correctly.

The day of the wedding came, and I was in my white dress and veil and was happy that I did. Bob hadn't seen me yet and I hoped he'd like me in my dress. I also wondered if he decided to dress up too and it turns out he did. When the maids had taken their places, we started walking arm and arm down the asile.

I contemplated running away because I was nervous and thought I'd be headed in some kind of trap.

I can't remember if I did or not, but I know that during the wedding scene, I woke up.

This next one is different though. It's my first nightmare that had to do with my dad.

It was the typical weekend with my dad and co. I had gone to use the bathroom but, since I was on my period (funny, I'm still on it too) I had somehow, bled on the floor (yes, gross, but it's a dream okay?). I wasn't aware of this until dad was using the bathroom after me. He looks at the floor and sees a drop of blood and starts screaming at me that it's the second time it's happened now (when in real life, it never did) and that he'd had enough. I can't remember what he did, but I yelled at him that I couldn't help it and started walking out with nothing but his huge t-shirt as a nightie I had slept in. He yelled at me and told me to come back else he would hurt me again. So I did for fear of that. Something else happens and I'm running away now, down the street in the same garb I had worn.

Dad runs after me and somehow, chases me into the backyard, where I'm cornered by the privacy fence. I turn to him and plead, only to be slammed against the fence and suspended in the air... I gasp and stare wide-eyed as he threatens me. He then drops me and I crawl to a corner of the fence and house. I see Aunt Margie come up behind dad and she yells at him and askes him what's going on. He mentons something to her before making a hit at me.

Before his hand even comes close though, I wake up gasping. Not a very pleasant dream...

And if you're curious, no, dad was never abusive to me or Aaron. The worst he did to us was throw a cup at our feet. >>

Mon, 02 Jun 2008 19:31:29 GMT

So I haven't been posting as much. My bad.

I had three dreams last night and every one of them was weird.

First Dream

I was invited to this one popular guy's party and for some reason, Brittany, Aaron, and Andrew were invited too. I think Ray was invited as well, but I'm not sure.

Anyway, it's a pretty ordinary party until Aaron and Brittany start fighting (I think they end up making out at the end but I'm not sure). Anyway, I really had to talk to Aaron but he wouldn't listen. I started to cry and dropped to my knees and pleaded with him again. Andrew brings me to my feet again and hugs me saying "I know what it's like to have to go through this". I'm all shocked and feel guilty that I like him hugging me because he was the reason why they broke up in the first place and it was pretty shallow. Then, he picks me up bridal style and... That was the end of the dream.

Second Dream

The second dream was pretty short

In it, I was with Mikey. I don't remember where we were (possibly outside) and we were just walking. I think we started talking about something and then, I just hugged him for the longest time.   I just wanted a long hug from him.

Third Dream

The third one was the longest. It was inspired by something I heard on the news about this muslim family being abused.

This woman had this baby with her and I thought he was cute. I somehow end up in the car with both of them and he's unproperly strapped in and while I'm trying to take care of him, the mom swerves everywhere and the baby is crying. I tell her she should stop because of her baby but she's just a bitch.

I guess later on, we're in the gym or something. I noticed how he's pretty tall for a baby and he looks kind of deformed. Someone tells me that he's actually 17 and has been abused by his mom (his mom looks white as pure snow and he looks kind of Indian) which is no surprise.

I talk to someone else and he says that she's watching over a living 'missing link' or something like that.

End dreaming.

Thu, 17 Apr 2008 04:57:13 GMT

I took a long nap, much longer than I should.. But seeing as how stressful my day has been, it's understandable why I fell asleep for so long.

In the dream I had though, I was throwing up what looked to be like the dessert dish called cornflake delights, but I hadn't eaten any. It's just what came out. Cornflake delights look like cornflakes molded together with peanutbutter. It's an alright dish but not something I'm crazy for.

I digress. While I ran to the sink to throw up (really, it would have made sense to go to the bathroom which I think I did but whatever), mom asked me what was wrong and I told her I couldn't stop throwing up and that I shoudln't go to school tomorrow.

She said that even though I was throwing up, I had already missed three days of school (in reality, it's only been two) that she couldn't have me stay at home the next day. But I was convinced this wouldn't go away tomorrow and begged her to. Either the dream ended with her changing her mind or I threw up again.

Really short dream.

Wed, 16 Apr 2008 01:40:43 GMT

Another dream came to me last night. Lately, excluding one, all my dreams have been based, or brought on by a certain guy. For those who happen to come by and read my journal, I'll inform you on who he is.

His name is Bob and we've talked to each other for three years now. We've grown so attatched, that we've actually fallen in love a couple months ago and he plans to see me for the first time this summer.

That aside, lately we've grown even more attatched and it's no surprise my dreams want to tell me things. *sigh* But they help.

This dream was by far the weirdest though. In it, I was in my room talking to him on the phone. He called me and his voice sounded upset.

"Amy... I have to tell you something and I know you'll think less of me."

"I'll never think less of you, Bob... What happened?"

It took him a while to tell me and for a while, I was trying to encourage him to tell me what was wrong. Now... putting the dream aside, this is pretty laughable because I -know- he wouldn't do this. But dreams aren't reality and it was very much serious when he explained what happened.

He told me that he was at a friend's party and that he eventually got drunk with two other girls that were hanging out with him at the time. When they were at the peak of their alcohol intake, he mentions that the two girls took him to a vacant bedroom and had sex. He then proceeded to tell me that he thinks one of the girls is pregnant.

Now... This was so far-fetched (reality-wise) that I questioned if it was real in the dream. But nonetheless, I ended up crying a bit while we talked it out and I eventually said that I knew it wasn't his fault and that I'd love him no matter what he did.

And thus is the end of my dream.

I think I'll look this one up too. It was really interesting...

Sat, 12 Apr 2008 23:43:35 GMT

So, the dream came back to me again. It was the same guy, in the same place, except a bit more happened. Not so much I guess but I'm not sure... :/

But the creepy part is that the guy from before, somehow turned into my brother and for some reason, I didn't mind. Maybe I did a tad because the other guy was there. Thankfully, nothing much happened but it was still a HUGE WTF moment. Dx But that didn't bother me... Okay, it did, but not as much as why the same guy would appear again. :/ So... I've set a rule of thumb.. If something happens twice in a dream, I'm going to look it up.

For those who don't know, I'm a strong believer in dream interpretation and that dreams are your subconcious trying to tell you important things that you may not fully realize. I go to the website Dream Moods. Feel free to check it out in my website link at the top.

What's dissapointing though, is that the guy spoke to me again but I don't remember what he said. I think it was somewhat like the last time: "Why are you so shy?" It was...weird.. >>

I'd especially like to know why my brother appeared. But I may already have a theory for why I'm dreaming this.

Edit

So, I looked it up and it pretty much told me that my hormones are acting up and that I also wish to experience a real relationship. I couldn't find any information about why the guy kept questioning my shyness, but I think that speaks for itself anyway. I'm too shy and am unsure of how to go about things even though I'm getting more comfortable and outgoing in my current one. The reason why I wish to experience a real relationship is because the one I'm in right now is a long distance one. Hm...

Wed, 09 Apr 2008 05:18:45 GMT

Damn! Don't you just hate it when you completely forget a dream, then remember it again, only to find out you remember such a small part that it's no help to you? *sigh*

Had one last night and now I can't remember it...

Sun, 06 Apr 2008 06:59:11 GMT

So here is my introduction...

This will only be used for recording memorable dreams I have (since lately, I've been having many of those and I've always wanted to do this). If I have to question posting it however, I'll either just not post it or just put it as a private entry.

Let's see...

The last dream I had was possibly on Friday..

I had a dream that I was going to meet this guy. Now, he wasn't just a dream, I do know this person via internet and we do plan to see eachother over the summer. Nothing much was that significant but I told this dream to him anyway. Now, his mom was driving along with him up to see me and I pictured his mom with dark, short and curly hair, and she was overweight like a woman of my mom's age (or around that age) would be. She was also driving a really retro looking car like from the 60's or 70's and it was brown.

Turns out, my description of his mom was pretty dead-on. Which creeped me out because I've never seen the woman. O.o Creepy... The description of the car though was close though. The car was a lighter shade of brown. I don't know why but that really weirded me out...

After that dream was done, another one came after that. I was lying in my bed with this one guy. Really, I was just lying on my stomach and the guy was a bit away from me. Then he just asks me, "Why do you hide behind your hair? Why don't you look at people in the eyes? Are you ashamed of your face?"

Then he hugged me and kissed my cheek or something and said "You have a beautiful face. You shouldn't hide it. I love your face."

And then I woke up... It made me uncomfortable at first, but it gave me alot of confidence for some reason. Alot of people have said I have a pretty face and I just shrug it off.. I mean, the only time I think my face is pretty is after I have a shower and when stress hasn't shown up on it and it actually looks normal despite scars. I have a habit of picking when I get stressed or nervous and that's not good... >>;

Weird, weird, dream... Yet, I think it was something I wanted to hear.